The overarching theme for the past seven years has been WAITING. That’s how long we have waited to be parents. Just when we think things are moving full steam ahead, something gets thrown into the gears and slows us down again. It’s been almost five months since our first trip to Honduras, and we have no idea when our second trip will take place- only the Lord knows (literally). We’ve been waiting about a month on a final signature.
I so often want to cry out- “THIS ISN’T FAIR!!!” and “WHY US?” I also feel like we are in a race against time because we will only have a few precious years before Luis is out of our nest. Only a few precious years to pour into his life. Anyway we are so thankful that in this waiting period, God has placed people in his life who have done/are doing an amazing job fulfilling the role of parent.
But why does God have us waiting so long? Our question has been asked by humans practically since the beginning of time, whether it be waiting for children, spouses, healing, etc. Job may represent the best example of waiting through really difficult times and having no clue why. In Job 1:1 he is described as “a man of perfect integrity, who feared God and turned away from evil”. Satan questions Job’s sincerity and motives for honoring God. However when God allows Satan to strip away his family, property, and livelihood, Job chooses to praise God instead of blaming Him. As he suffers from terrible boils and his wife urges him to curse God, Job replies,
Should we accept only good from God and not adversity?
Scripture states that throughout this time of suffering Job did not sin or blame God for anything. However, Job does question God’s purpose for allowing this hardship. In 13:23-24, he asks God to show him his sin which implies Job is starting to think God is punishing him. How often do I, like Job, try to explain God’s actions or perceived inaction? I know I have felt at times like childlessness is some sort of punishment, and I have asked if God really cares about or even likes me.
When God finally does speak to Job, He answers Him with a series of questions which serve to signify His sovereignty and purpose. Job realizes God is supreme over all and there is no way to comprehend His ways (Job 42:2-3).
I know that You can do anything and no plan of Yours can be thwarted. . . Surely I spoke about things I did not understand.
There is so much mystery this side of heaven, and it’s very likely we may never know the reason for this waiting. Sometimes we do more damage by trying to explain God’s ways when our finite human minds were never meant to do so. But God does make certain things quite clear in Scripture – such as His character. Paul tells the church in Philippi, “whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable—if there is any moral excellence and if there is any praise—dwell on these things.” So when I’m tempted to “explain” God or doubt His promises, I need to “dwell” on these truths:
He is sovereign.
I Chronicles 29:11-12
“Yours, O Lord, is the greatness and the power and the glory and the victory and the majesty, for all that is in the heavens and in the earth is yours. Yours is the kingdom, O Lord, and you are exalted as head above all. Both riches and honor come from you, and you rule over all. In your hand are power and might, and in your hand it is to make great and to give strength to all.”
“And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.”
He is good (that includes to me).
Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good;
His faithful love endures forever
The Lord is good,
a stronghold in a day of distress;
He cares for those who take refuge in Him.
“If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give what is good to those who ask Him!
He loves us.
I pray that you, being rooted and firmly established in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the length and width, height and depth of God’s love, and to know the Messiah’s love that surpasses knowledge, so you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
I John 4:9
God’s love was revealed among us in this way: God sent His One and Only Son into the world so that we might live through Him.
He will sustain us through this waiting period.
The Lord is near the brokenhearted; He saves those crushed in spirit.
I waited patiently for the Lord;
he inclined to me and heard my cry.
He drew me up from the pit of destruction,
out of the miry bog,
and set my feet upon a rock,
making my steps secure.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a song of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear,
and put their trust in the Lord.
Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken.
Yahweh my Lord is my strength;
He makes my feet like those of a deer
and enables me to walk on mountain heights!
So we will continue to wait, but know God is for us through all of it.
With His love,